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勇敢

2011-02-06T07:48:00.000-08:00

就这样，半年了。。

这段没有名分的关系维持了半年。。

觉得自己真的勇敢了好久。。

坚持了很久。。

那还没实现的承诺已过期半年了。。

都还没实现。。

没有人知道。。

没有人会懂我的感受。。

因为根本不能说。。

身为一位女生，我不懂什么是寂寞吗？

到了今天，我终于忍不住了。。

太多太多的承诺。。

我等了好久。。

我不想等下去了。。

我想回到我以前的自己。。

太折磨我了。。

我觉得我自己已经很勇敢，走了一段又一段的曲折路。。

再多的对不起我都不想听不想接受了。。

男人，我真的相信不过了。。

一直决定为你一个人而生活而不能说出口。。

所有的青春。。好像都耗尽了。。

泪每一天都在流。。

我根本不是在恋爱。。

对你，我真的很失望。。

对不起。。

我不会再维持下去了。。

放弃

2010-04-22T03:08:00.000-07:00

有着很想放弃你的念头。。
你。。没有一次让我觉得。。
我该继续把你爱下去。。

有的只是一次又再一次的失落感。

是时候放弃你了吗？
是时候给我自己一次放开你的机会了吗？
我。。真的很迷茫了。。
爱你。。不简单。。
我不敢爱了。。

想念

2010-04-21T08:44:00.000-07:00

我很想你。
可是却。。
不敢告诉你。。
我真的觉得。。自己身份卑微。。
不像你的女朋友。。
无法填补的空虚感。。
好需要你却不能讲。。

我的他♥

2010-04-19T08:03:00.000-07:00

部落格空着了好久，因为一直都没有什么艳遇。。哈哈。

跟你在一起后，我想把你肯定。但我不能，因为我感觉不到你在肯定我。
很遗憾的是，无法像别人一般，有着普通既又幸福的恋爱。
我遇到了距离和第三者的问题。
想了又想，怎么我那么犯贱让自己活在这样的一个感情世界里呢？
这一切都不是我想要的啊。不是吗？我怎么那么傻？还继续爱他。。

但是，也因为这样，我的忍耐性变强，包容心变大。
可耻，其实是我不甘心，不放弃你是因为我不甘心。

你一时的承诺，一时的坦白，一时的欺骗，我再也无法完全相信了。
当你对我说下承诺，我会想，你只是一时之下，有感触而说出口。是，我有感动，但不会久。
当你对我坦白，我会想，你应该是怕我想太多，想让我对你信任。是，我都有记有听，但每次都会过期。
当你对我说谎的时候，就代表你做错事了，我心痛，我难过，我对你的信任一度减少，但我还是会继续爱你，去听你说。

你都不知道，我期待的那一天，就是你完全让我信任的那一天。
我想听见你对我说：老婆，我的心再也容纳不下其他人了！
老婆，我发现我自己原来那么需要你！
对不起老婆，我以后以后都不会去伤害你。心里不会有别的女生，就只有你
一个。
老婆，你不要离开我，你知不知你对我多么的重要。
老婆，如果你离开我，我会崩溃。
老婆，我是完全属于你一个。
。。。。。等等。。。

我真的一直都盼望有一天，我可以对自己说，我找对人了。他就是我的一生。我不要再改变，全心，全意。只对他-JIM...

raining day...021209

2009-12-01T23:21:00.000-08:00

hmm...suddenly feel like come back n visit my blog....^^

It's a rainny day,what whould i do?
I'm afraid to call you.I can't find the reason..
Why has the sound of insomnia..
Become so familiar...
Silence has bcome ur replacement..
Waiting with me for the rain to stop...

Anticipating makes one more & more submerged in confusion..
Who is like me..unable to find their somebody...
After falling in love you,for some reason,I'm alwaz learning of..
Loneliness's flavour..
Holding an umbrella alone,wiping my tears alone..
BEing alone is so tiring...
What kind of rain,what kind of night..
What kind of me can make you think of me more?...

How big does the storm have to be..
how dark does the sky hav to be..
So that i'll hav your consideration?

Actually..without me,you're still unable to tell whose differences apart...
How much more obvious can the ending be..
Don't say you'll be sad,don't say u want to change...
The person who's loved doesn't need to apologise...

Anticipating onli will makes one more and more tired........
should I continue to wait?or....
i hav no idea.....

不完美

2009-10-18T05:37:00.000-07:00

生活开始忙起来了。。
也开始乱了。

我那色彩的天空
暂时找不到
想沉默想寂静
想拥有独自一人的海滩
好让我有个呼吸的地方

也想听听海浪的呼吸
那一定是很舒缓的
它能让我留下眼泪
也足以给我一个微笑

我只想等待
并不想拥有
感情放在第一。。我不想

所有已变得不完美了。。

i hate u for the end

2009-10-05T00:09:00.000-07:00

argh...recently..i rili need alot of frens....
juz realized tat...i cant live with alone..
is deeply been hurt tis time...
i wont let u appear in my heart anymore...
u r suck...

new seed

2009-09-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

since when...
the yound seedling aready start to grow up..
n who is the person who plant it i hav no idea...
i hope..
it wont be grow up anymore....

yes..i miss u....but i cant let u noe....
bcuz im not clear about wat u thinking in ur mind....
maybe im juz a temporary....
cried for no reason bcuz of u....

thxs for bought me a dinner in the garden taiwan restaurant...
thxs for ur morning call for almost whole week...
thxs for bringing me happiness...
maybe juz for temporary....
in my mind...im not hope to be stop...
but...at last also need to be end up bcuz of u...
we r meeting in the wrong timing...
maybe too early or too late....
i miss u for the moment now...
the secret will only keep in my heart forever...

stupido..

090909

2009-09-09T09:19:00.001-07:00

yes..it should be a special day for everyone...
i didnt expect tat hav anythings happen on me in tis day..
but..thxs to those who giving me suprised...
ya...its a special day for me also..

thxs ben..thxs guna...and more n more..
ya..quite long time didnt talk on phone until early in the morning ady..
yes..it was a 'gud' experiance for me also..
the next day...both of us bcum pandas in the hotel..
hahaha....so funny right stupido~

and lastly...
happie b'day to my ex-bf...
JOSEPH LOH JIUNN KEE!!!!
ya~i noe u maybe dating wif ur gf now...
haha...all the best to u la!!from the sincere of my heart^^
today really a special day for u!

211 gathering..

2009-09-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

its on saturday..
yea..was nice was fun was awesome....
it is hard to organise a gathering u noe..
i tot im not going today...but...at last..
i also went for it n enjoy so much..
after back from work...its ady 7sumthing..
im rushing up my time to prepared the things tat i need to use..
qian n yfung was came to fetch me tat night...
thxs my mum allow me to went for it..

211 is the hostel room number tat we stayed together b4 when we were in secondary skul..
i rili feel thankful tat im having a group of nice roommate..
yea..we all having different type of character...
but we still can mix up with each other...

who r those members who attended the gathering?
^^...jiahui,yenran,wernhui,yiingfung,jiaying,me n yiqian...
although was few ppl onli.but...stil nice..
yenran is going back to UK tis cuming tuesday..after tis dunno when she will cum back again..
n yiingfun going to UK also on 16th sept..
hmm...almost 1 yr will juz cum back..
so...im appreciate tis gathering alot..

we bbq for whole night...its hot but enjoy the process...
we played playing card after tis..but then we found out we dunhav in that home..
guess wat..went out to bought while it was having a heavy rain..shit..
7-eleven sold out...so decided back to yenran house to find..
yea..when back to qian's hse...sum of them r sliping..
woke them up n we start to played sum games which organised by our well-being team leaders..
who is YENRAN!!!!haha..she decided to played police,killer and civilian...haha..
my 1st time playing n qian n jia hui also...
but..im like nobe when i noe im a police...i stuck in there..n my heart beat is so fast tat u cant imagine..im juz keep quite cuz im scare...so stupid right..
faint!!

we exchanged our present after tis...
guess wat i got...3 sexy undergarment!
faint again...

yeah..after finished all the things was like around 5am dy..
ciao...slept...but..sum of us slept around 6am...
it has been long time didnt try to played until morning...
so every1 of us was feel like hell after the next day morning..
we took snack such as potato chips,pringles,cheese ring and mamee for our b'fast...
while waiting for the piggy yenran to wake up...n we watch movie in the living room..
we took our lunch togther at foodstall in sg buloh...

**upload those picture soon**

爱一人..love someone

2009-08-28T08:57:00.000-07:00

如果你不爱一人

if u not love someone

请放手

please let it go

好让别人有机会爱他

allow others hav the opportunity to love him/her

如果你爱的人放弃了你

if the one u love abandon you

请放开自己

please unlock urself

好让自己有机会爱别人

allow urself hav the opportunity to love others

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的

something is not belongs to u nomatter how much u like it

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的

somthing is be doomed to giv up although u still remain love it

人生中有许多种

we do hav many type of life

但别让自己为一中伤害

but dun let urself be the one who asperse

有些缘分时注定要失去的

some predestined lot is be doomed to lost

有些缘分时永远都不会有好结果的

but some wouldn't be come to good forever

爱一个人不一定要拥有

love someone not always be seized of

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他

but when u bcum a possessor u muz love him/her kindly

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了

hombre cry bcuz he rili love

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了

feme cry bcuz she rili abandon

如果真诚是一种伤害

if the empressment is an injure

我选择谎言

i choose to deceit

如果谎言是一种伤害

if a deceit is an injure

我选择沉默

i choose to be dumbness

如果沉默是一种伤害

if be dumbness is an injure

我选择离开

i choose to leave......

mad

2009-08-27T10:38:00.000-07:00

today my mood is so BORING...

until i dun feel like i wan to work in FO....maybe..

bcuz im doing those nonsense things tat i think..

i will wait n be patient...hmm

finallly yamcha wif FO team members Peggy n Azy after working....

i feel like much more better...

thxs u guys...^^

argh!!!i dunwan to WORK wat i DUNLIKE!!!!!!

warm sunday..

2009-08-24T06:15:00.000-07:00

if u do sumthing tat gud to every1...

for sure..u will get a gud return back...

like today...although i need to work today...

but i feel happie wif my work today..y..u wont noe tat feeling which make me touching..

i gav hand band to a little cute foreign gurl....

she was so happie...she shown her mum n turn back to me...

guess wat...she cum n said alot thankyou to me n wanna giv a hug to me...

i was like...omg...i stuck in tat time...

she hug me damn tighly...

n i gav her younger brother also...

he is quite short...n maybe can said juz learn to noe how to walk...

he stretch out his hand n wanna giv me a warm hug n kiss...

i was so touch....they r so cute man...

when the gurls is leaving...she said to me..'i will miss u'...n gav me a kiss...

hmm...they are leaving from the hotel...

hope i can see them the next time...

apart from tis...i got the praised from guest..

sumthing tat i can communicate well wif them...

n appreciate me alot...

im happie cuz..wat had i did...i get the approve from them...

be patient...n i will work hard wif my job...

special day in hilton..

2009-08-22T09:05:00.001-07:00

today is a special day for hilton...

maybe tml also...

Fidelio system is going to turn down..

n OnQ system will be take over...

tats a gud experiance for me to learn in tis training...

all the things will be manually check-in n out today...

n we all trainee are incharging serve the drinks n biscotti~

fuN~but...need to keep greeting the guest for 8hrs...non-stop...like a stupid...haha

luckily i feel like today those guests are quite cooperate n patient n kindly n friendly...

so..although is working without system..but is still on control....

suposed to be off day tml..but..

tml is the 1st day of using new system...

they might need help from trainee..

so we all need to cum back tml for help...

yeah...suposea to back hometown tml..but my family will left me here..T.T...

but nevermine...i ady got plan wif frens to dinner at McDonald tml...hahaha...

Rahmadan start from today...gud luck to all of the muslim...

n hope they can pass tis month..ADD OIL!!!!!

slip~

nitezz....

Eau de Parfum

2009-08-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

i own 3 perfume now!!
so niceeeeee......

CK summer....a delicate fragrance...

Paris Hilton sheer...cum wif abit sweet scent..feel like mysterious and intriguing...

Estee Lauder bali dream....bring out a mature fragnance...

i love u all very much!

since when..i love collect the perfume?

bull shit...waste money...

feel like happie bcuz today guest said to me thxs alot of taking care of him n happie during his stay....

feel like sad bcuz today got 1 guest said he hav been stay in Hilton for 5 yrs..

n im the 1st person who ask his room number..

bull shit him..how i noe which room he staying..n i'm new ok!im hav been grabbed by them to be hostest for 1st day....

infront of him..juz be patient n told him 'SIR...so sorry for tat...im juz a TRAINEE!!!'...

he told me his room number finally also..lucky he still said thxs to me b4 he back...

today exe lounge busy like hell...3person working onli....rili kill me!

although is tat...our allowance for 1 hour...is 1 HOUR...onli RM 0.80.....

so pity after we count it by hour...

KL convention center also provide us RM8 per hour la...

now we 1 day onli RM6...omg...omg...how can survive...

but...i rili learn alot...especially facing those VIP*8....which meant troublesm guest..

i feel like worth it also....

yeah..7am working tml...f***...slip...

i'm LOST..

2009-08-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

everytime when i not happie..
i hope sum ppl can accompany...
tis time...although they not accompany bside me...
but still...make me feel comfortable...
they sms and chit-chat in msn wif me...
i feel like i hav been care by them...
thxs kent,thxs zomzom,thxs jingyou,thxs koji,thxs adrian,thxs jay,thxs lincoln..n alot of u..
including my sista also...
thxs u all appear when i need u all...
the feeling when i suddenly wake up in the midnight make me very scare...
i do hope got ppl can let me to find in the midnight...
but i dun dare to find anyone....
ya...my dearest is not around me..
they busy wif their training...n we hav lost contact for tis training..
i feel like so far away from them..

yesterday suddenly got ppl brought me to Sky Bar..which in Traders Hotel..
supposed to take my dinner there..
but...i had no mood...after i reach the level 33rd fl...
i asked to left...
so sory for tat...wanna gav me a suprised but i hav no mood to eat there..

REMAIN the same MOOD....

club club club!!

2009-08-02T08:06:00.000-07:00

who wan to club????!!!

im having a nice training in my hotel!!!

i definately luv it!!!!!

being a receptionist now...

everyday standing the front desk...

greeting the guest..

help them wat they need...

i rili luv it!!

if im graduated...for sure i will be back to here..

HILTON KL!!

a hand

2009-07-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me,

chances are that I may let your hand go.

But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,

you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours... This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feelings.

mESsaGE

2009-07-25T09:07:00.000-07:00

after 2 days...A take out his brave to told C tat he very miss her...
wat is C responded was...juz ignore...
n today he also beg C to reply him..
she replied...she said...plz giv her sumtimes...n said sory to him...
he asked...when he juz can meet C?
C juz replied...she has no free time...
Y until now they still cannot clear their relationship...
i HATE them to be like tis u noe...!

HA!!!!FINISHED angry...

tis morning i met Kent for fitness...meet him around 8.30am...

but he came earlier n waited for me..

paiseh...^^

after finished...he waited me for bath around half n hour...paiseh..^^

n we dunno where to take our bfast....so i decided in McDonald..

cuz i luv McDonald much...

1st time take burger as a bfast...rili crazy...

we chat for around 2 hours in McDonald...n met my training friends also..

who is H1N1 Ju ken, H2N2 Sammi....me is H3N3....haha^^

so stupid was...yesterday 3 of us..our SE phone suddenly all spoiled together...haha

today our hotel all staff wearing 'Boleh' T-shirt...n a cap...

i feel like so unik....^^they said today mean every1 is BOLEH....

i finished worked around 8.30pm today...

n need to try for FO uniform...

my friend Wei Lun was brought me home today...

He told me he still got sumthing to do when we took lunch together...

tats y he can wait for me...actually he start work 7am today...

but i dunno he ady finished work when we took lunch..

after i went up him car..he told me he juz wiat for a while..

but actully...he wait me since 6pm...

he bought coffee from coffee bean...

n listen to radio in his car..n wait for me ...

OMG!!!!!!!!i feel like so glitty...

aiks..summore he wait for me safely go in to house he juz go bak to home..

how gud he is...but i feel like sumthings is going happen...

hope it will not cum..

yesterday saw my cool guy ZETA BAR drumer Daniel Edwards Hewitt when im working..
although he saw me..but we didnt hav the chance to talk...cuz im doing my work..
if i saw him next time...i MUZ talk wif him!!!im swear!!!!
i hope one day..i can go to zeta bar to see him play music..
hear tat...Peter Ahn, Coree Free...n him also..all are the best musician..
omg..how can i dun love him..hahaha...kidding...

1o24~^^

cuming for the end...

2009-07-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

thxs my all dearest support me...
im sure the person noe who am i talking on...^^
Thxs yea alot....

A & C are cannot be together....

bcuz B is a person's status...which is belongs to A..

and they got d & e.....

C is the person without everythings....

if C is B....for sure she will more sad than C now....

C is the person who broke the chain....

i hate her alot....how cum she can be like tat!!

its too over and over!!!

C choose to tell A wat she thinking....

but at last....failed to tell him...

wat C wan to say is....C is not willing to be tat 3rd party....

C...dun dare to sayout at last also...

guess wat...they have been together for almost full half year...

the feeling is true more than true...

A & C's eyes are swealing i believe....

they noe is cuming for the end after today....

not too long i think....yea...is not too long....

i hope they are fine now....i hope tml they still live like usual....

she juz wan to say gudbye...

can she?

lost my pendrive...wat the hell.....make me so frustrated...

this is not the 1st time....i have alot important things inside....can i get it back...

plz...plz....

LOOK FORWARD for wat is cuming up to u.....

hope i can so....

FOOL!!!

2009-07-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

i juz saw sum 1 blog juz now...

oh well...he is my ex actually...

i saw he is writting..he hate those ppl who playing gurls' feeling...

i rili dunno y he can write tis out...

bcuz...i feel like im the one who play by him...

i love him so much last time...but then...wat i got at last?

he told me he love another gurl...wtf!!!

now...he dare to told every1 he hate those ppl...

so who is he?!!

b4 tis...he still obtain a gud image in my mind..but...

after today...yea...no more....i hate him more than b4...

such a fool guy!!

sick

2009-07-18T08:05:00.000-07:00

emm..didnt online for so many days...

cuz was tired of training...

i believe my every classmate same wif me....

finally...fever on friday...looked for doctor n get the MC for 2 days...

haha..tat day morning ady started feeling not well...but then...

i stil go to training as usual...until lunch time..i asked for stop from work...

n i rest in locker room for around 3 hrs....n wait for my fren to fetch me home...

thxs wei lun^^

i even cried out bcuz telling my mum tat i sick...so poor...
my mum was so care about me..she ask me not to drive...
n ask him to fetch me back home 1st...
at last...he sent me went to ate sumthing...cuz i whole day eat ntg..
but i rili no appetite to eat...after i ordered a fried rice..i ate few then he help me to finished all.
so pity him...haha..sory wei lun...make u fat...haha^^

today went to facial wif my mum...n we spent around RM500 in facial n products...argh!!

yea...kent called me today...n ask for fitness together next week....if can...^^
ya..long time didnt see for him....damn miss him...^^
hope we meet next week....
is so nice hav a partner to do fitness together^^
like me n alo vaniessa..

hmm..gonna rest now...is tired bcuz after took the medicine^^

fever..plz go a way from me...i rili hate u much!!!

happie*tired

2009-07-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

im happie bcuz...last day in F&B department...
its rili tired like hell...kill me...high hells everydays n need make up!!!
summore need to use blush n lipstick...wtfish....
everyday occupancy full full full....argh...tell them our hotel close la!!!
today...my last day...no water distribution at all...nevermine...cuz since last nite ady like tis...
n u noe wat...all the guess who came for breakfast..most of them were didnt took their bath..
(they said)...ok...fine...its ok for me....but then...when juz started to worked...
the air-con got problem...until no air-con supply at all....we all...hot like hell!!!sum server even started sweating...ish!!
today saturday..should be Hi-Tea time...until now..i juz realized...hehe...
emm...hilton Hi-Tea is not so gud as i think...i meant the food...
for me...i wont prefer to come here seriously..

ohya..noe a guy who work in our hotel Zeta bar...

his name is Daniel Edward...haha...he everyday came for breakfast...but then...

i didnt talk to him...n juz serve him n gav the bill to him..

until today...bcuz rili not busy..n we juz start to communicate wif each other..

he so nice...he is one of the member of the band....^^i think he is playing the drum set....

yeah,,once he saw my name tag...he juz start to use my name to call me..^^

but..today im the last day i F&B...less chance to meet him...argh....!!!haha..

when Hi-Tea time...noe a Doctor...she came here for giving a speech...
she is foreigner...but i didnt remember where she from...
y i noe her...bcuz....bcuz...i threw her bread...haha...
so embrassing...i tot she is leaving...cuz she ady went out from restaurant..so i juz collect all the things...
but i dunno she juz went out n looking for her fren..hehe..
i ask to take another for her...but she said is ok..she wan another things now...
she rili a nice woman....

after worked...went fitness 1st wif Vaniessa...

yea...damn tired...wo did until the club closed...

haha..actually...we dunno they are closing 7pm in saturday..so...^^

no choice we juz kept rushing n rushing...scare we close by them inside the locker room..

everyday came bak so late..until i sisnt hav the time to chat wif fren...feel like..
lost contact...hmm...rili dun like tis kind of feeling...
yea..if im still not go to bed now..tml for sure im sick...
ita kinda headache now..

i miSs my frens!!

tu Me manques mes amie!!!!

my 3rd day of training...

2009-07-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

my training....so far so gud...n so busy...
until they ask me to stay back n help them...
i everyday work more than 9hours..aiks...yesterday from 11-9pm...
but i like way they communicate...emm..how to say...
when they are changing shift to others...like...3pm shift cuming in to change wif 7am shift...
they all will like...giv a nice welcoming ...sum ppl hugs with each other...
sum is like touch the thumb to each other...sum is like juz simply giv a hand shake...
how nice...
i like it...even me...im trainee...they all still giv me a welcuming also when i get in everytime...
today...they so funny...keep singing song when cooking...haha...emm..
i appreciate the time wif them...^^working wif them rili no pressure....
n u can learn alot seriously...they will teach u until u noe well...they wont scold u...
they use the different way to teach...
n today knew few taylor's trainee...they r from BDH30....
name im not so remember...Kathy,her bf...Ricky i think...haha..n a gurl...
n genting Inti frens..which is Rudy and Ju ken....^^
we took lunch together...ya...sum of humans are still nice in tis world....

last nite...my mood was down...cuz sumthing happened..
but then has been settle now...
Lin He called me last nite n sang sum song for me n try to made me happie..haha..
so suprised..cuz its working..thxs my dear....
after that..when i chating wif my brother...
Cutie Zombie called me n complaint about his life is so boring now...
omg...he was so cute in the phone...i meant his attitude...rili like a child...^^
but feel nice when talked wif him also...
around 4.30am...half way of my sliping...my fren called me also...ish...
his name is ANSON...i tot was my taylor's fren...after tat i juz realized...
he is not...he is one of my fren who had lost contact to each other...ish..
damn fish..haha...
but i told him i was sliping...n ask him to find me the next day...
tats y when i wake up tis morning..i feel like very very tired...
cuz i didnt slip well last nite...

hope my tml will be a nice day for me also....
n also for all of my dear who training now...^^

P/S: Jenny...plz take gud care of urself...u such a weak gurl..duh...

1st day for training at Hilton KL...^^

2009-06-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

emm....i choose to specialized in Front Office department...
tats meant...will be is FO for 2 mths...
i tot i will start tat 1st...but then..today we juz got the schedule....
im start kitchen 1st...
well..it juz onli for 1 week..aiks...abit disapointed...
im work in Sudu restaurant's kitchen....
it serve international foods n local dishes..
i didnt bring my safety shoe today...cuz it was unexpected...
haha..i borrowed from chinyee...cuz she tot she start kitchen 1st....
but then..she start housekeeping 1st.....
those kitchen staff treat me very well...haha...
they gave me alot of vege to cut...like capsiken,onion,potato,tomatoes,chilies,bacon bla bla bla...
all they gav me total i think almost 50 units more...n need to cut to dice size...wtfff....
oh well..done it at last also...pity me....but all of them...yea..is around 7-8 staff...came n tought n helped me..haha...haha...they said..they scared me cut off my finger...sum of them find the gloves for me...how gud they are...maybe..maybe...i got injured when i was washing the knife today...
haha..so stupid rite...after they tought...they all observed the way i cut infront of me...so nervoused...
ah dui...they said...sure im not culinary student...ah dui....my cutting zero marks ady...
haha...they said lucky im juz in kitchen for 1 week..if not...my fingers will all gone...haha..
ish..so bad....=.=...
next week i will be in F&B dept....im not sure which restaurant i will be in..
but i hope is not bad...hope can get in Senses restaurant...bcuz there serve Aus dishes...
after tat...will be in HS for 2 weeks....n juz start on my FO for 8 weeks...
aiks...rili dunno how to pass my time...
my legs is extreamly tired now...how to survive tml!!T.T

yeah..should go to slip now...tml...start work 12pm....so late....
alehluya...god bless me....

busy saturday^^

2009-06-27T11:18:00.000-07:00

huh..i woke up dame early today....haha...juz to prepare for my dating....

after dating wif Alex tis morning....i went to my mum around 3pm...

n we shop for awhile.....she bought a shoe for me today....

n we went to ate...cuz we extreamly hungry....we went to Red Door...

n ordered a curry chicken rice for her...a herb kampung chicken soup rice fir myself..

n also a cendol for our dessert.....

So TASTY!!!....after tat went to do sumthing wif my mum n we went back to home...

i slept for awhile for my next dating...

7pm...they called me...i was so lazy to get up....damn tired....

at last....hmm...juz wan to gather with them...cuz i miss them alot!!!!

we went kepong ate steamboat....

although today abit less ppl....but....i noe the next time is coming soon...^^

n will be a number of ppl.....^^

since???standard 2....8 yrs old...haha...

i rili dunno y they wan to put the eggs on me....

but seriously...li-en....damn....funny....

she going bak to singapore study tonight...

n congrats her get PR in singapore^^
tu me manques~

here is my junior roommate...zuo mei...

HAPPIE 211 DAY.................

i back home around 10pm...n yingfung came my house n took tiramisu cake...

haha...hope it was nice...^^

after tat...the worst things...went out wif my parent again...

haha...bcuz they wait to to dinner...omgosh!!!!

went to kepong street again...n went to a restaurant call '米雪'...

i juz order a apple juice...n portugese stew fish....

i watched Micheal Jackson's past concert juz now...

he was so amazing....he rili the best dancer among the world...

wat a pity he has pass away from us....

he can made us be touch with his song...

n also can made us be rock n high follow to his song...

will never forget the moment..

R.I.P. king of POP.....

dating~

2009-06-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

out wif one of my fren today...
actually we ady planned to hang out for so many time...
at last...haha...we met today...
he fetched me...
n we went for Hi-Tea...n movie at kepong jusco..
cuz both of us stay kepong...
haha..n he treat me all the day long also...
how nice he is....
studying at U-tar....haha...
yea...we promised will hav the another chance to meet...
as long as we free....
after back..went jogging wif my cousin...at metropolitan garden....
the sky is getting dark..so after 1 hour...we bak home^^

micheal jackson...
the king of pop...R.I.P.
has a nice voice wif him..
n noe well in dancing....

farrah fawcett....
an main actress in charlie's angel...

both of them left this world in the same day..
how sad...
rest in peach....
micheal jackson n farrah fawcett....

my holiday....part 3.....

2009-06-25T11:13:00.000-07:00

wednesday.........

emm...made tiramisu cake today....

huh...2pm went Pastry Pro bought all ingredients...

when wanna to started...juz realized....i hav no enough eggs!!!

drove to mini market to bought 1 box...4sumthing..damn expensive!

ok....start!...........................half way.................

1st....i mixed 4 whole eggs together...actually i juz need the egg yolks...THROWN!

2nd time.....the eggs i cooked too much...cant used...THROWN!!!

n i asked my brother followed me to bought another box...ish!damn it!

ok...tis time i dun care...mix mix mix....BOOM!!FINISHED!!!

bring it to freezer until it solid...^^

actually...damn successful la...haha....next time will be more gud i think...

half of the cake...i gonna gav my cousin...cuz they wait for my pastry for long time since

last time i made cup cakes for them...rili thxs for their support^^

n im so happie my brother said not enough him to eat..haha...

he said not bad...very nice...hehe....

lastly..my mum used my wasted eggs to baked kuih bahulu...i think is small little sponge cake..

huh...noe wat...rili tired!!!!

thursday..........................................................

my mum on leave today n accompany me went to klinic for injection doses...

emm...sumthing like prevent women's virus/cancer??

haha..its cost me RM400 per injection...

n need seperate 3 times to finish it...1 month after and 3 months after..

damn scared until keep ask the doctor how pain it is will be...

haha...who dun scare of injection...

he told be wont hav any problem after injected..

but..until now i stil feel very pain...n cant take those things are heavy...ish!

like sum1 hit me n sweling....omgsh!!!

next...we went bank....shop.....n lastly visit my aunt!

a tired day too^^

im trying to make myself busy i think....hehe^^

my holiday..part 2...

2009-06-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

monday............................

went to KLCC...for settled my fitness account...

yeah..i wan un-freeze it..

n..aiks...met sum1....alovan.....

haha...she going to blame me after saw tis..

n i wait for her about 25minutes..

n we went shop awhile...

n decide to go bak.....cuz...im thinking to fetch my brother buy sumthings...

n i noe tat nite i keep emo-ing infront of many of my frens..

haha..sorry~sorry to all my dear...n thxs for willing to borrowed me urs earsss....

tuesday..............................

went to one utama wif Jenny^^

i need to wait after lunch wif my mum juz can leave..

cuz...juz wan to appreciate the lunch time wif my mum when im having holiday...

so...around 1:40pm i juz letf my house to fetch jenny...

it was quite late...

but but but...we had alot of fun there...

we took the big head photo for twice..haha..

the staff allow us n recommanded us which 1 is more gud...

how nice^^

n we went secret to had a rest...cuz we crazy for almost an hour more..

n bought 'tian bu la' from 'shi lin'...

after tat...we met for ah pei2....

around 5sumthing 6pm...we letf...cuz i was rushing to home...

how nice for today...^^

my holiday..part 1....

2009-06-25T10:22:00.000-07:00

1stly..haha..last week didint post up my photos of club....

yeah..went for barce last thursday after exam...
it was FUN man...

around 2am...went to coco banana to met my fren..

emm..actually was my ex...haha..he was extreamly drunk..

who were there wif me tat nite..

i juz noe..emily,jenny,sook ling n her bf, ceo, aki n 3-4 of his frens..

vicky n her bf, april,ethan n his fren....bla bla bla...

respire de waves of the sea..海浪的呼吸

2009-06-21T10:19:00.000-07:00

i remember i had composing a few songs in the past...
the most favourite is this song...but it is in chinese version...
im not the one who composed the song...
im juz the one who wrote the lyric...
i can't remember all the lyric dy...juz the chorus part..
its a nice song...n was the 1st time i started to touch on composing...
it composed by my senior..written by me..n sung by my ex...
remembered tat our school we hav a rule...which is...in our composing lyrics..
cannot include those love meaning..
wtf man...its difficult rite..
nowadays...the use their love feeling to compose a lyric..
but then..so damn when i knew it..
wat to do..if u wan get more knowledge n learn..
u use to do it...

海浪的呼吸
曲：刘永辉词：黄翠婷唱：李伟雄

xxxxxxx xxxxxxx
xxxxxxx xxxx
xxxxxxx

xxxxxxx xxxxxxx
xxxxxxx 在心里面
寂寞缠绕我身边

听不见海浪的呼吸离我多远
一瞬间被风吹掩盖了地面
我发现梦想与现实间的差别
多想带你回到从前那种幸福感觉。。

i rili cant rili remmeber all the lyric...aiks..
too bad...hope i can find it bak 1 day...

another song is sing by me...
but not compose by me..
the title i also forgot..haha...
juz show the chorus..

爱你到底去了哪里为什么找不到你
仔细听有多少孩子在天空哭泣
爱你到底去了哪里难道将世界放弃
难道我们没办法将你唤醒
我们会用尽全力去唤醒你。。

its not gud at all actually..
but then..it was a nice memories to me..
its true...i miss the time...we practised together...
im going to compose another new song...
haha..dunno when will be done^^juz hav a little details wif me...
tis time...i no need to care about the rules of school...^^

father's day

2009-06-21T09:50:00.000-07:00

happie father's day to my dad...
i didnt hav the brave to tell him when infront of him..
im feel like shame for myself...
my father's got injured tis morning...
his backside was injured..n his leg also...
im so scare...
luckily...he is ok now....
i saw him wanted to sewed sumthing juz now..
he asked for my helped to made the string cross the niddle...
i helped...
in tat moment...i realized...my dad is very strong n hav the sense of security...
he can protect we all..u noe wat...wat he also can done by himself...
he juz a businessman...but he is my lovely father...
i hope i can tell him i love him one day...
i hope so...
i promise..i will study hard...i wan return all to him in the future...
im swear..i will...without him..i hav ntg...

i LOVE u DADDY~

my saturday..

2009-06-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

had fun on my thursday nite...^^yea..im happie..if u r wif me tat nite...
slip for whole day on friday..
my mum didnt say anythings also...i love my mum tat moment..
how cum she allowed me to slip until 6pm!
n i juz wan to say happie birthday to zin xien!!!!
hope u had a wonderful b'day...
went to One U on saturday...wif my mum n my brother...
yea..we ate nando's...its nice...
suppose to buy a slipper...
but can't found wat i wan...
me n my mum got in Paris Hilton shop..
its made us a damn!
the perfume is so cheap...but we juz bought a CK summer last week...
we cant be so greedy to buy another wan rite...
i wan...i wan paris hilton..i forgot wats the name ady..its in pink color bottle..
100ml juz for around RM200...
n my lovely mum wanna buy a wallet from there...(un porte-feuille)
if she's b'day cuming..for sure i will buy for her...^^

my cutie brother so pity...followed us all the way....
he was super boring i can feel....
so sory^^

ohya...we r quarrel for few days..
but i didnt feel any missing him also...
how cum..
n i didnt take any action also..
how cum..
haha..yea...i hav grow up..
i noe i dun need it for now...^^
wat i can let u noe..i hav no feeling....

上个星期。。发现了一个装满沙的瓶子里藏着了一个字条。。
那瓶子是你在06年12月给我的。。里面写着。。
还有。。。写了一些让我一直都很想知道的东西。。
‘我爱你’。。我到今天。。才发现。。你也很浪漫。。
感动了几秒。。但我又收回了那份想念。。
因为。。太迟了。。

tempting heart

2009-06-15T05:06:00.000-07:00

過去讓他過去來不及
重頭喜歡你白云纏繞著藍天
如果不能夠永遠走在一起
也至少給我們懷念的勇氣擁抱的權利
好讓你明白心動的痕跡
總是想再見你

誰還記得是誰先說永遠得‘愛我’。。
以前的一句話是我們。。以后的傷口。。
過了太久沒人記得
當初那些溫柔。。
我和你手牽手說要一起走到最后。。

謝謝你給過我的。。
記憶。。只剩下空氣。。
我是時候打包回憶了。。
陌生。。卻又熟悉的心情。。
對不起。。

~Random~

2009-06-15T04:34:00.000-07:00

i wan to get off of this kind of life...everytime during final exam...is suck!
try hard in my study...but i feel like i can't even breath at all..
pls help me....
i have been stay at sapo Chloe's house which locate at usj for 3 days...
the moment wif frens is so gud...u noe..
no stress at all...
i n her....aiks...the method of study is do funny....
keep screaming all the time..haha...
during saturday...we studied at the sumthing like lounge in the condo..
i was so curious abt y had so many ppl keep cuming in..
maybe is a wedding party i guess..
but but but...they all r wearing casual...like me n chloe...how cum!we said..^^
yeah...we juz realised tat day was the opening ceremony of the new condo..
so..they held a party to invite all the ppl who staying there for a buffet dinner..
haha...actually we supposed to went bak..at last..we queue up n took sum food..
it was so packed...
we brought up all the food to home...haha...
when they was come for ending part...they keep playing those club music..
it was soooo NICE...the feeling i wan to go for clubbing come from tis moment...
hehe^^the music was stopped around 12am...aiks...i noe i need go bak to study tat time..

during sunday, we cooked porridge for our lunch..
when we start to study...haha...guess wat..we went to watch movie...
we watch since 4pm until 11pm...wow....great..u noe...we having exam the next day only...
we rili great...

Emo...yea...recently i rili emo...dunno y...
lack of sumthing in my life....
i dun feel like happie anymore after sumthing happened on me...
i start to scare n worry for ppl who around me...
who i can talk to??who i can trust?its so hurt for me...
im sad bcuz my life has change...
i hope i can stay in the world tat have no cruel...is alwaz peachful.
no lying...alwaz the truth..
no complicate thinking....alwaz innocent....
yeah...maybe...like tis...all of us will feel much more happie^^

stop bReAtHing now...

my cutie chocolate

2009-06-07T05:39:00.000-07:00

This is John Connor...

2009-06-05T00:58:00.000-07:00

today our econ class has been cancelled...
so..our class finished at 9.30am...
we went for lunch at piramid...at Pasta Zanmai restaurant..
who r going?
sapo chloe and faye,june,beenah,angeline,fion,
zombie,wayne,dean,siauling,chrissy,melissa and moi~
guess how much we all spend?around RM390...
crazy man....
n then..bside the pasta zanmai hav a shop which buy all the stuff from japan..
mean like food n drinks....is sososo CUTE..
i had bought a chocolate which i will post in my blog later..
u also will feel tat is very cute..
is cost me RM8.90..
actually i decide to buy alot of things in there...but then...
cuz it is too cute..but then..aiks...save money...economic very poor nowadays..^^
mel,angeline,bnah,june n chloe went bak...
than we continue our plan...which is movie...
Terminator salvation!!!very nice^^
jessie,janet,keefei,raymond,ewen is joining us for movie...
we having fun inside seriously...
but then..i can get HIGH bcuz my stomach very pain...
aiks...damn it...
we come bak to college student lounge...
im not going bak yet..
abit lazy...
half more hour i think...
i noe i need to start on my study ady...
aiks...so sad...no mood to take the exam...wat to do...
will moving to fren's house next week for final exam..
hope me can concentrate on there..
tata~
This is Cathryn.......

2009-06-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

not so gud today...although i feel like im very lucky...
but then..sumthings is make me cant be feel happie...
dunno how to describe...
suddenly feel tat i duno how to live wif my life...
feel like lack of sumthing...i dunno wat is tat..
study is for my future?yes..it is...
but until now..im not the top...disatisfy...
my frens are changing or me?
or they still remain but juz im noe more about as the time passed?
every1 is different...dunno y suddenly feel out from today...
im feel like im using by them...not many i can trust on..
all having a poker face infront of me..
im so upset...y am i so stupid trust all of them...
izit stupid or innocent?
u can find out tat...ur family is the one u can trust on n help u..
they wont play on u..wont cheat u..n they noe u well..
last week im quarrelled wif my brother..
yeah..the time was so suffer to passed tis few days..
until today...finally...we starting to talk wif each other..
i feel gud...my family is the one i cant leave on...nomatter how..
i love them...
i rili need sumbody to help me...n support me...
i rili feeling not gud....

TIRED!!!!!

2009-06-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

i rili feel upset wif my life...
maybe not in the future..but now..
i feel like im hopeless...
im very angry wif tat person until i cant angry...
i rili no energy at all...
wtf is she!!she is the person tat make me wan to say out the rude word...
i treat her as wat..but wat i get for return..
maybe..maybe her personality is rili cannot change....
i rili hope tat i never noe u....
maybe i will be more happie now..
im tired wif u!!

sumthing tat make me tired is went for gym!!
guess wat..i skip my class wif darvan n we went together...
haha...so happie hav a partner to fitness wif me...
but tats only temporary..
n today my name is DORREN LIM....
darvan create tis name for me...haha...
if speak in canton will very funny la...
tml suppose to go also..but then...no mood ady...
seriously...im tired wif fitnees today but im happie...

sum1 is helping me...im rili appreciated it....
thxs u guys....
i rili not hoping tat im givng troublesm to u all...
so sory...

Nice date...

2009-05-29T09:49:00.000-07:00

im writting the things happening on friday..

is was a nice day for me...

we had our forum in the morning..is about bartending..

was successfully completed...however,out president cutie zombie was not there...

bcuz he got injured his hand last nite...n he now is staying SJMC...will be check-out tml...hope he will be fine!!we will alwaz support u!!!zomzom...

n i went out wif Marc to the curve...for a movie...

b4 tat,he said need to go bak his house to feed his doggie...which her name is Sasha...

'she' is so CUTE!!!n Sasha was keep stick to me when i walk in his house...(his house is nice actually^^..Marc's room was messy..haha..)

n when i called her 'Sa..sha...'...she will try to look for u!!!!!omg!!she is so cute!!!

n i noe Marc brother...name Martin...he is cute also...he very nice to me..

After they chaged the cloth..Marc send his bro to meet his mom...wif the doggie also...

His bro was nice when in the car..he noe im scare Marc driving fast..

n he said..if i sit his father's car...will be more terrible..haha..so cute..

When meet their mom..Marc bring me out of the car introduce to his mom...

n his mom...was so...CUTE also..how to say..she had a bouquet of flower behind the seat of car...

n she took out n said..my 8 years old b'day...so..i juz wish her happie b'day..lol...

after chit chat awhile..me n marc left..n we went to the curve...

The movie was start on 7pm...so we juz hanging around n starbucks while we r waiting for the movie time...guess wat!!we saw Ms Suzzane wif her husband n daughter!!!!!!of course we had chit chat awhile...her husband is damn tall n strong..n her daughter...so cute n funny....her name is Mia....She is nice to us although she juz hav 3 years old....after tat...they went to the Barbie exibition...haha...

'night at the musuem 2'...!!!!nice!!!!

n we went for ate sum dessert in Thai Express...was quite tasty n gud..i like it..
he suppose to sent me home after tat...but i asked my parent cum...cuz..i scare he will get lost after sent me...haha...so...maybe next time if early i wil show him...

Yeah..tats a nice day for me...i rili love it!!!!!

heureux

2009-05-27T01:34:00.000-07:00

came back home damn early today..
cuz the FO class cancelled^^replace it on friday..
every wednesday..i will be stay bak until damn late..even need to stay overnight...
except from today...hmm...but i prefer to stay back or hanging out but not come bak so early..
make me feel like so free n ntg to do..ish...
oh well...today is ntg special...
i juz had my french exam for 2 hours in tis morning..
i think can score well but not full mark..^^
Thxs Marc for helping me again..
He rili gud to fren..

Yesterday was so happie when i going bak to home..
i go bak wif poppy and iceing queen..n met my secondary skul fren in the train..
after tat..met my another fren at kl sentral while waiting the interchage train..
He promised me bring the Australia chocolate snack for me which his mother juz bought from Australia..so gud~n we will meet on next tuesday...
i met my cousin also and i ask him to follow my car...
i met my another secondary skul fren when i reached my station n fetch her along also..
n we chit chat about how we r doing currently..n i found out tat she is stuying in UCSI now..
haha..im so happie cuz my journey was quite fun with meeting them dramaticly..

This cuming saturday is suppose to go fitness with Darren-van...but then i ady freeze my account for 2 months n i cant use my ID to get in i think..aiks...wat to do...i hope to gow if her also..hope she can go it after i reopen my account....sorry my dear^^

This few days was quite busy wif exam...make me feel damn stress n getting to sick also..
less to talk wif ppl....aiks...few weeks to go then need to prepare for training again...hope my placement confirm asap...tml need go to carrer centre interview 1st bfore interview by Hilton...hope it will be successful!!!!!GOD BLESS ME!!!

cinema jour

2009-05-25T07:00:00.000-07:00

vingt-cinq, mai, deux mille neuf...

Je heureux pour adjourd'hui!
i has been invited by Marc to be son ami guest suddenly...
so..no choice...i went wif 'darren' and 'poppy'...
the service was SUCK!!!i have never met b4...
but the food was meet the standard...
at last...Mars was rushing to his class n he left after took the main course...
then...dang dang...we having 4 dessert at last...
but the things is...Mars help us to pay for all the mocktails b4 he left..
aiks...feel like not so gud..Thanks Mars anyway..
i have a nice lunch today..

after tat...alex came n fetch me n we watched ICAC together...
tis movie...quite nice.....^^
n we took dinner at kepong...n he took a foot massage...
me...wait n sat bside for one hour!!!!!no next time!

i noe my darling was not happie wif today...
i dunno y..emm..maybe bcuz get scolded by teacher?
hope she get the mood bak...

need to go n slip dy....^^

2009-05-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

my feeling

2009-05-24T06:08:00.000-07:00

24th MAY...
i feel like boring today...
my mood is not getting up..
i hate tis kind of feeling..
why?..i dunno..
tis morning didnt get up to jogging wif my parent..
i rili tired...
tml hav assessment..
i rili dun feel like i wan to study..
tis cuming week is damn busy...
n alot of assessment...
i dunhav the time to meet him...damn it...
the feeling he giv me also not rili caring tis few days..
maybe bcuz of tis make my mood getting down also..
haiz...
argh!!!!!make me wanna change my college now...
i wan forget all the things happening on me in tis college...
suntimes those stress is the motive to make me go clubbing..
not i willing to go...
the things is i feel like i will feel more better after relaxing at there...
dancing around...but i dun take alcohol...anti of smoking...
enjoy the music...scream...enjoy urself while dancing...cum wif abit sexy..
the feeling rili GOOD...
i noe most of the ppl will dun like...
include my parents..sum of my frens..etc..
i rili feel sorry to them after cooling down from club..
i still love you all..i have never change...
juz i havnt find out the right way for me...
i feel like wanna go for mardi-grass or euphoria tis cuming friday..
i dunno izit possible to make it..
i hope i cant make it also...if my mood is ady getting better...
get bak to my study now...

^^

2009-05-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

i had a blog bcuz of u..
i deleted my blog bcuz of u..
i created a new blog bcuz of u all!!!!!^^

i rili dun dare to noe wat is going on wif u everydays...
u make me hate u so much...
but last nite...i viewed ur blog...
u r still the same..u like car so much...
i hope i have the opportunity to talk wif u one day...
n we return normal fren..

argh!!those ppl ar...keep ask me to create my own blog ar...
seriously ar..i dunno how to play leh...
duh!!those who call me momokaka..
those who call me alo cathryn..
those who call me honey honey..
n summore dunno who ady...
NAH!!!!THIS IS MY BLOG!!!!

i met my fren today in the train..
he promise me will bring an Australia APPLE for MOI~
n then he will fetch MOI go yamcha after he get his new car...
wahaha..I FEEL GOOD~~daladaladalada~
my Australia apple!hope he not fooling around wif me..

Tml Sinae will be my guest...
i rili owe him alots...haha
no worry..i promise u i will return..
n u also need to return to me..
plz dont add in goverment tax or service tax or wat..plz~~^0^

I LOVE YOU ALL....
sun,dar,van,shy,clo,fay,mel,fio,wei,jun,lotte,yee,san,angel,bina,christ,net,jess,ling,rach...bla bla bla...n of course u irenee...

my blog...19 MAY...

2009-05-19T00:05:00.000-07:00

Hi..

its me!

tis is the result of boredom..

Today is My blog'z Birthday...^0^

Celebrate 4 me everyBODY....>0<...